The Power of Your Authentic Self
We all tend to wear masks, or veils, that hide our true selves.
For most of my early life, I did not feel safe being myself. That might be because I didn’t really have a self. At least I didn’t know who I was. I was extremely repressed and shut down. And I hid myself to avoid experiencing any further pain.
In my family of origin, I did not feel safe being female. Nothing was ever overtly spoken to make me feel that way, but as a highly intuitive person, I picked up on many unspoken signals that said, it’s better if you don’t show too much femininity or too much sexuality.
I had a boyish haircut and wore baseball T-shirts and jeans to school. I didn’t own any dresses. I never wore makeup.
Although I was trying to hide, I still felt intense pain and shame when people called me “Sir,” which they sometimes did when they saw me from behind, and unfortunately also sometimes when they saw me face-to-face.
Over a long journey, as I healed, I realized that my real power and strength came from my true self, myself as a woman. And I started to blossom and to reveal myself to the world. I became a devotee of the goddess in all her forms, and I threw away all of my pants! To this day, I don’t even own a single pair of pants. I express myself through dresses and make-up and longer hair!
That’s one reason I have always admired and loved gay, lesbian, and transgender people. I recognize what kind of courage it takes to be your true self and show your real face to the world. It took me a very long time to get to that same place in my own life.
This is also why I became a professional shaman. My greatest hope in my work is to help people connect with their own true selves, with their own inner guidance, and with their own power.
I love helping people find the courage to shine their light.
Tearing off the veils, the masks, creates such a rush of freedom and exhilaration. There is no going back after that.